Ping Yao Zhuan / Feng Menglong ; translated by Nathan Sturman
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Chapter 12:
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To what extent a soul will go depends upon its thirst
That we be so hard-hearted wasn't fated from the first. |
Having sown a shady grove of willows quite by chance
In shadow they can nourish neither flowers nor romance. |
It is said that Bonze Dan and Holy Auntie recognized each other as siblings from a previous existance; now isn't that ridiculous! Nevertheless old Mumma and the hostess both fell for it and returned to inform Yang Chun and his wife, who along with other folks did indeed say that it sounded strange, never suspecting at all that it was a barefaced lie. Now as for Holy Auntie she had been living alone over in the chapel, but at the outset of the open meeting Granny Yang sent some slave girls and maids over to keep her company and look after her. When Bonze Dan first spoke to her he was afraid to go into too much detail, as the others were present.
"What sort of characters is that Golden Sutra written in?" he asked. "How do you manage to read them?"
The old woman then boasted of her meeting with that supernatural figure and receiving the Sixteen Heavenly Writings. And she explained that nobody could read the elaborate script because it was a book from holiest India, the very gateway to the faith. She told of how the genuine sutras of the Tripitaka had all been written in Sanskrit, and of how Chen Xuan commissioned the monk Jiumaluoshen and others to translate them into Chinese according to the Tang pronounciation, bringing the existing editions into being, although on holy mountains and in ancient monasteries the original Sanskrit writings had been passed down and still survived.
"I've met a person with special powers, too," answered Bonze Dan, "who passed on to me twenty-four pages of mysterious writings that nobody can understand. I've got a page here in fact. Can I trouble you to have a look at it and tell me what it says?"
"I'll have a peek."
"Bonze Dan then reached into one of his bundles, removing and opening a cloth wrapper and spreading one page of the writings onto the table. The old woman looked at it and gasped. "Why, this is a script from a far off land over the sea, and even I don't know it." She then cautiously gazed up at him, watching his reaction. Disappointed, Bonze Dan nodded and wrapped the page with the others in the cloth as before.
After supper the groundskeeper could be seen leading in a servant, who removed a fresh cassock and lined quilt from a felt bag he was carrying. "Our master has heard that Holy Auntie's met her brother from a former life," he announced, "a marvelous twist of fate. He wishes to present these unworthy gifts to you, Reverend, as an expression of his feelings. He'll come see you early tomorrow."
The old woman and our monk thanked him as one. The servant then relayed orders to the groundskeeper to clean up and prepare a small side room off of the main chapel, to be used as Bonze Dan's quarters. Our monk then reached down with one hand to gather up his bundle and newly received quilt and cassock, picking up his staff with the other. He then followed the servant into the side room, where he at last rested quietly.
"The way that old woman looked at me," he thought darkly, "it had to have some meant something profound. You know, I could wait a bit and barge in on her in her meditation room to ask her directly, but if a servant spots me it might be misunderstood." Turning it over and over in his mind his curiosity just wouldn't subside.
After sunset, hearing the third stroke of a distant temple bell and knowing the the meditation room to be closed by regulations, Bonze Dan stepped out of the his room and stealthily went directly into the worship hall. He could see only a glass lantern, its flame flickering weakly; to the rear was the meditation room, its doors tightly closed. Eavedropping for a moment and hearing nothing he remained on his guard, just remaining still for a half minute or so, before turning to go forth once more. But what did he then see by the flicking shadows of the lamp but the form of Holy Auntie walking about in the hall!
"Where did you get them, brother?" she asked.
Now, Bonze Dan was frightened and awed, and knew at once that Holy Auntie indeed had special powers. "I've just come to seek knowledge from you!" he pleaded, hands clasped up in front of him.
"You know, those twenty-four pages we were just talking about. Let me have a look at all of them."
At this point Bonze Dan knew he'd best come clean with everything. "That's really all there are."
"They're the profoundly secret codes of Heaven, written in thunderscript," said the old woman; "where did you get them from?"
Grasping the significance of her words, Bonze Dan told her all about the three times he sought the Way at White Cloud Cave, including the story of the godly voice he heard in the dream. And the old woman then related the entire episode of her own dream meeting with the Empress Wu Zetian. "Thank Heaven and Earth!" she proclaimed, hands clasped prayerfully. "Today at last I understand the meaning of "enlightened at egg Dan! Why, if you hadn't got that book, I wouldn't ever be able to know it! We help each other, hiding nothing, and we mutually find the ultimate path to the mysteries of mysteries!"
She then took down the lamp and placed it on the floor. Bonze Dan returned to his room and removed the cloth roll from his bundle. He then opened it up upon a prayermat and handed all twenty-four pages over to the old woman.
And so they sat on a couple of prayermats while she lifted a page and read it from top to bottom. "The name of this work is the 'Treasure Book of Heaven's Blessings', and it consists of seventy-two changes utilizing the cool damp power of Earth. But there are another thirty-six changes using the dry hot wind of Heaven; how come you didn't snatch them up as well?"
"They're on the thirteen pages from the left wall, and I couldn't get but about half of them."
"It was fated, destined to be this way!" mumbled the old woman.
"How is the energy of Heaven different from that of Earth?" asked Bonze Dan.
"Heaven is Yang: emptiness, high and immense, while earth is Yin: substance, low and intense. The laws of Earth's power can take spirits lacking form and create worldly manifestations for them, but their lives are limited by Heaven's preordination. On the other hand the laws of Heaven's wind act through dieties floating in the precincts of the sky and famous fairies to accomplish what even the Lord of Heaven cannot do!"
"Can they both drive away evil spirits?"
"Why not?" said Holy Auntie; "Ghosts are sentient beings, after all."
"I can see how the wind of Heaven can do that much. But how can you be sure it dominates the forces of Earth without your actually witnessing this?"
"Heaven embraces and covers earth and not the other way round. According to this line of code here, number sixteen entitled 'The Properties of a Teapot', what is inside the boiling pot is Heaven although it isn't on high. Why, that means it can pass through walls and transcend distance. And according to line number seventy-two, called 'Properties of Earth Dieties', these appear less brilliant than the light of Heaven's high winds. This means Heaven simply must have divine power over earth. It is truly a blessing that you and I have met today!"
Bonze Dan continued with his questions. "Are these twenty four pages on the laws of Earth's forces complete?"
"They're all here."
"There's some writing on the backs that I didn't rub onto them...can't you say what it's about?"
"We don't need to concern ourselves with anything apart from the original text."
There are a lot of awfully strange big Chinese characters on the fronts of the pages, aren't there?
The seventy-two lines that make up these charms aren't written in Chinese."
"But before they begin there are scores of lines of our characters; if they don't belong to the Seventy-Two Charms just what do they say?"
"'Whosoever practices alchemy by these laws must first set up an altar and take a solemn oath of loyalty' ... that's the gist of it."
It was as if Bonze Dan had all along only been dreaming of Dao and had just awakened to its fearsome reality. He feel to his knees at once and kowtowed. "If I hadn't received your teaching, Holy Aunt, I would have suffered those three times all in vain. My work would be like jade that has never known the carver or a pearl that has never met the harvester's knife. By all means take me down the path to the practice of alchemy with you, starting today!"
"It's all a matter of natural principles, and once you've mastered them you won't need such explanations of everything that comes up. Problem is, it's one thing to talk a bit about alchemy but quite another to really do it! First of all, there's the selection of a site. The place has got to be spacious, quiet and remote, out of earshot of dogs or roosters, and rarely if ever visited by people, so that the formulas can be kept secret. In addition, this will create less of a hindrance to visits by dieties and spirits. The next condition is wealth. With something that goes on for for years and months on end like alchemy, financial backing must be secured. There are lots of little things needed like the five basic metals and general supplies, special products and medicine and all different sorts of apparatus and furniture that you've got to keep around for use at any time. You've got to have really deep pockets to cover all the expenditures that came along! And then the third thing you need is to know your own heart and mind. If two folks study Dao together and one of them has a disordered mind and falls by the wayside, nothing will ever be accomplished."
Bonze Dan listened intently. "I've gone through so many trials and tribulations to get those writings of Heaven into my hands, and now I'm so fortunate!" he sobbed gratefully. "Having met Holy Aunt, why, even if I can't dream of soaring as a god in Heaven I'll die satisfied just having been an earth fairy for one day! As for the third condition Holy Aunt has spoken of, getting the mind in order, well, that's no problem. And the first problem of finding a site, we just go deep into the mountains and find a vast and deep ravine and there we are. But the second need, financing, well, not being government officals or thieves how can we raise all that money? And even lots of officials only dream of eating and drinking their full!"
"Don't worry," said the old woman. "As folks say, 'beggars can't be choosers', but we really are in luck. Once the grand revival's been wrapped up successfully, I'm sure Deputy Yang will bear our next undertaking on his own shoulders!"
"I leave it all up to you, Holy Aunt," said Bonze Dan, hands clasped formally and bowing deeply. But by the time he straightened up the old woman had already vanished. Rubbing his eyes in disbelief he gazed at the lavish furnishings all around. "Wasn't it a dream?" he wondered. And looking in once more at the doors to the meditation room he saw that all was as peaceful and quiet as before. He thought of what she had said in its every detail, its laws and principles, reflecting on her own considerable knowledge of the Daoist craft.
Then suddenly he felt possessive and jealous about the twenty-four pages of Heaven's writings, what with the way she'd muscled in as if to take credit herself for them. He would so very much have liked to keep them somewhere for himself, but he also knew that Holy Auntie was truly extraordinary and that he just couldn't do without her.
Then picking up his scrolls he wrapped them as before and put them back into his cloth sack. Then he lifted the lamp back to its hook, picked up his bundle and returned to his quarters in the sideroom, where he slaked his thirst and went to sleep. And here is a poem:
Without an end the brightness in the lantern waxed and waned
While on the mat the secrets of the gods were all explained. |
The patron as before will pay the thousand coins of gold
Although he can't control the things that finally unfold. |
Next morning Deputy Yang came over and asked to see Bonze Dan. Upon meeting he asked about his guest's background and voiced some praises of him. Then together they went to the meditation hall and met Holy Auntie, thanking her for those seven days spent hard at work preaching the faith and reciting sutras. And having heard that fewer than four thousand transient monks had so far been assisted he naturally wondered how many more days it would take.
"Put your worries aside, sir," she answered. "Your work is already done. You cheerfully agreed to undertake the sustenance of ten thousand monks and their monasteries and that is enough. Tomorrow is an auspicious day for practicing charity, as good a time as any for us to conduct the great closing rally for goodness and virtue."
"That's so good to hear!" answered Deputy Yang, delighted. After I do the orders for tomorrow's alms I'll have the Temple of Guanyin prepared as well. Young Reverend, I'm sure your Daoist skills are highly refined. To get right to the point I'd like to trouble you to take charge."
"I'm too young for that sort of responsibility. I'm still a follower, not a leader."
Holy Auntie then spoke. "What with our enjoying your district's hospitality and all we can't but try to do our best! Tomorrow we'll make sure that that the Teacher Guanyin herself is there to receive your Excellency and Madame's worship."
Deputy Yang thought back to when he had first met Holy Auntie, recalling how Granny had told him of seeing Guanyin seated in a cloud; he too wanted to get a worshipful look at her. He had since spoken to Holy Auntie many times and she had done all the talking; it had not been very satisfying. Now at last he was walking on the clouds in delight with the prospect of a visit from Guanyin.
"If I as much as get a glimpse of her precious holiness I'll be happy for the rest of the my days!" So having said he rushed over to the Temple of Guanyin outside the west gate, followed by some servants to proclaim the coming day's events and invite a delegation of six leading monks. By evening he had taken care of the sacred slips, musical instruments and furnishings and had everything sent out to the leaders concerned. As for the one in the garden, he didn't disturb her. Holy Auntie had insisted on meditating alone in her chamber, all the better to receive the Bodhisattva there, and she sent back the few slave girls who had been looking after her.
Next day at dawn's first light Bonze Dan was presented to the delegation of six monks over in the Temple of Guanyin; that made seven altogether to represent the worshipping mass. Together they went forth to the beating of drums and ringing of handbells, the chanting of sutras and shouting of holy charms, all according to the agenda for the grand moral revival; need I say more? Deputy Yang also arrived early, dressed for worship. Granny Yang, recovered afresh from her illness and all excited by the prospect of a visit from Guanyin also wanted to worship her. Riding out in a small palanquin she burned incense upon her arrival in the garden. But finding the meditation room locked up she knew at once that Holy Auntie was in retreat; she didn't wish to bother her.
Deputy Yang sent old Mumma over to escort Granny to a peaceful seat in the study, and he then joined her there; anxiously awaiting the arrival of the Puxian Bodhisattva Guanyin he implored Granny to worship this miracle together with him. But as the day wore on there was no sign of the promised visitation; after the priests led three worship services and two almsgivings the sky was alreaady low in the western sky and there wasn't as much as a trace of news. The gates of Holy Auntie's quarters were still shut and there was no sign of any activity inside. Granny Yang became impatient; though she normally loved these rituals she was now weary in body and quite tense from the day's wait and only longed to return home. Yang Chun then ordered a new round of joss and candles to be put up, donned a fresh cap and gown and thrice bowed to the statue of Guanyin, begging pitifully. Seeing their patron set such an example the priests redoubled their efforts as well. They all carried on wildly until the third watch of the night until even Deputy Yang couldn't bear it any longer and ordered the sacrifical money and holy slips to be burned in preparation for sending the worshippers home.
It was just then, as they fed the paper cash and slips to the hungry flames that everyone witnessed the onset of a sudden whirlwind, carrying the sparks and blazing paper up into it. Then as Deputy Yang and the others all raised their heads in awe they saw first the broad light of a fire, and before their eyes it changed into a five-colored auspicious cloud. And upon that cloud appeared Guanyin, bedecked in pearls and gold, looking ever so precious yet correct and severe riding atop a white elephant.
Deputy Yang was stunned. Unable to utter a word he fell to the ground in silent worship. Bonze Dan also took it for real and dropped to kowtow in awe with the other monks. And of the participants at large, milling about and chanting, there were none who dared not worship her. Now, the bodhisattva said nothing but just proceeded slowly to the locked meditation hall where she landed on earth and went right in. As it was the nineteenth of the eighth lunar month (about Halloween, trans) there was a splendid full moon and all could be clearly seen.
"Stand back," shouted Deputy Yang, "the goddess must have something to discuss with Holy Auntie and we mortals mustn't barge in begging to meet her! We should all rejoice just in having seen her seated in the clouds."
"The world's revered one came on account of our host's record of good deeds!" shouted a priest. "For us lowly monks to have been brought here, fed and treated to even this one sighting of her is blessing enough for three lifetimes!"
Deputy Yang nodded humbly, then again knocked his head on the ground in front of the idol while the masses in attendance mounted their horses and otherwise departed. The clergy then retreated to the main hall for their meal, then scattered the incense ashes, gathered up their gifts of furniture and set off for their home temples. Bonze Dan returned to the anteroom as before and rested.
As the next day dawned Bonze Dan called reverently upon Deputy Yang, who was sitting with his morning tea. The host thanked him for the previous day's labors and brought up the public vision of Guanyin. "When I got home and spoke to my wife," he related, "she said she hated herself for her bad luck, for having been too weak and tired to stay."
"Early this morning," said Bonze Dan, "Holy Auntie told me wanted Granny to come over to the garden. She's got something to discuss with her."
"I'd really like to see her myself and find out about her meeting with the bodhisattva, but with things this way I won't for now. Why not hang around here and have a nice vegetarian breakfast while my better half goes over to consult with Holy Auntie? If your reverence will just wait in the east room for awhile I'll be right back to keep you company." Thus having spoken he went in and informed Granny, who happily got ready and, attended by a slavegirl, mounted a palanquin for the journey to the west garden.
As for Bonze Dan over in the east room, well, he'd never customarily adhered to the dietary restraints but having seen that monks' dining hall and wishing to eat had falsely said he was a vegetarian. So today he was provided with monk's food and that was nothing he could say about it.
Granny Yang arrived in the west garden and went right to that meditation room. She reckoned it had been two months since they had last met, and this made the occasion especially joyous. Her temperature and chills had also long since subsided. "I've heard that Holy Auntie met with the Bodhisattva Guanyin in person last night" she said. "Fate wasn't with your disciple and I had to go back home early, thirsty and exhausted, and now I'm filled with regret at having missed the vision."
"The Teacher Puxian said she had already met you once, Granny."
"It was in mid May of last year, around the time we first met you, Holy Aunt."
"Guanyin told me that you and your husband had been Jade Girl and Golden Boy in Heaven before your descent into this life. During a prayer festival in Heaven you two had been naughty, fencing playfully with your banner poles, and as punishment you were sent down to the mortal world as husband and wife. Because of that advantageous beginning you have loved Dao in this life. And if your accomplishments are complete you can still be promoted back to Heaven. I, your lowly Daoist, now want to stay here and build a temple to Guanyin and cast a golden idol of her to receive sacrifices. I want to reside there reading and teaching the sutras and the faith, ensuring that you two are ultimately selected to fly back up to Heaven. What do you think of the idea, my Lady?"
"I'm really moved by Holy Aunt's beautiful intentions. In our estate's east farmlands there lies an empty parcel of mountainous land, perhaps forty or fifty mu. In days of old there was a monastery on the site but it's been gone for many years. With the way our family has been straining to give charity I'm afraid we haven't got enough money to put up a building or cast an idol."
"It won't cost a cent of your family's funds. Your lowly servant has got a son by the name of Zuo Chu. Right now he's under vows as a Daoist wizard in the Guanwang Monastery at the foot of Swordgate Mountain. Since boyhood he's had the magical gift of being able to turn white into yellow, if you get my meaning. He hasn't been able to practice the craft very much because he hasn't yet found a patron so blessed as you. And as for this blessing, well, it isn't your ordinary one, oh no; it's a gift of the fairies! For example, producing gold at a touch: for the masters the future holds the creation of elixers and pills that will keep their faces forever young and drive away all illnesses, crowning them with radiant glory so that they may rise back up to Heaven as of old. And as for their servants, their future assures them another life as humans, with all its many advantages over lower rebirths. If your estate can provide just a bit of ordinary coin for me to have changed into gold there will be not only great profit but the interest to be gained as well. And if a bit more gold is thus produced you could use it on good works for the poor. Yesterday I mentioned this to the Teacher Guanyin and do you know what she said? 'How perfect! What a truly priceless undertaking!' Now, if you hadn't indeed been blessed, the Great Teacher would never have so lightly given her approval. However, this is all secret. Should word of it leak out these things will be difficult to accomplish and the outcome wil be less than beautiful."
"Let me go back and discuss your proposal with my husband" answered Granny.
Granny Yang then returned home and told Deputy Yang what Holy Auntie had said. Now, his mind and body had already been thrown off balance from seeing that phoney bodhisattva of Holy Auntie's. It had truly been a heart-stopping shock for him! If Holy Auntie Auntie now commanded him to cut off his own head with the glib promise that it wouldn't hurt, he would enthusiastically start slicing away! And yes, the Midas touch would be an ordinary attribute of a family of immortals! How could anyone doubt it?
Deputy Yang finally returned as promised to Bonze Dan and told him of all that he'd just heard. Next he rode on horseback over to the east farmlands to have a look around and then went over to the west garden to ask Holy Auntie about this business of conjuring up gold and building a temple.
"There's nothing to it," she said. "It just requires a quiet room in the midst of a desolate open space, far from dogs or roosters and seldom if ever before visited by people; in there the most profound wonders can be worked!"
"Your disciple has already been out to that old hamlet of ours for a look," replied Deputy Yang. "The place is wide and secluded enough, and it's suitable for building on. It's said that it was originally the site of a religious side-venture of Lord Commander Guo of the Tang Dynasty and there still remain a few ancient cedars along with the thirty four dwellings; I've naturally had them boarded up and placed off-limits as you've instructed. The estate slaves themselves are in another area, and they've been told they've got absolutely no business trespassing in there, and they are of course responsible for any incursions."
"Now we need only wait for the day my little Zuo Chu arrives," said Holy Auntie; "then you can take him to the site and have him approve it, and that'll be that!"
"And just where is the young master? I'll send someone specially to fetch him back, overnight if possible!"
"My son is crippled in one leg so he's known by the holy name of 'Que'r', meaning 'Little Limper'. He's at Swordgate Mountain right now, pretty far from here, and perhaps he'll need porters to bear him here as it would be hard going on foot for him. And there's another snag: they depend on my young wizard's talents for everything at Guanwang, and they keep him in a room deep inside. If they hear his family wants him here, the other Daoists surely won't agree to release him. Only if you yourself write out some orders in your official hand telling them the way it is will they be persuaded to let my boy go."
Deputy Yang was overjoyed. "If I may trouble you, Holy Auntie, I'd like for you as well to hurry up and write a letter and I'll send my agent there with it first thing tomorrow. And if your boy's legs aren't up to the journey there'll be money to hire some help."
He then left. Holy Auntie quickly wrote the missive and called on Bonze Dan to deliver it to Deputy Yang's house. The master then called for his customary agent in these matters, Yang Xing, handing him Holy Auntie's letter and carefully explaining all he had to know. He was ordered to off on the journey early next morning. And he was given over twenty ounces of silver for expenses and to hire a horse for Wizard Zuo to ride, told to look after him carefully and to make haste going and coming.
Yang Xing went home with his master's orders and began preparing for the journey when his wife caught sight of that big bag of silver and began nagging him to death, begging him to let her buy new clothes, jewelry and accesories for her hair with it. He broke down at last and gave her one or two lumps, equal in weight to several coins.
At dawn he went to the estate store and got his own clothes, jacket and so forth out of hock. But when folks heard that he was being sent on a mission with money in excess of expenses they came round to press him for a few odd small debts. He had to pay them and there went another few bits of silver. Now he was only afraid he wouldn't have enough for the journey, and that he'd have to live on ginger and vinegar, saving and scrimping on everything. And finally when the time came to go he hesitated and dreamt of pocketing all that cash and building his own house. But then this is just an ordinary human desire, not worthy of further comment. Here's a poem:
Paying out so richly for a bit of alchemy,
They hope to tread Nine Heavens for a better life to be. |
Zuo Quezi waits as fated far away not knowing when
He'll someday get his chance at last to swindle future men. |
Now, it has been said that the Wizard Jia Qingfeng of the Guanwang Monastery had been dreaming of Hu Mei'r day and night, drunk with infatuation, ever since parting with her in the second month of the previous year. He bared his heart daily to Quezi, spending a few hours asking about her wheareabouts and lamenting before leaving. Quezi tried his best to humor him, sending him back with advice to burn a joss stick and worship.
Later, however, the chief priest came more often with his doubts and fears, two or three times in the course of a day, and Quezi eventually grew impatient.
"Teacher, you make me laugh!" he finally burst out in contemptful anger. "I'm in here, the same as you! Only the gods know the answers to your questions. They've got legs attached to their bellies and where they've wandered on them beats me! For all I know they're on a peak in the Himalayas by now! You talk about them being your stepmother and stepsister but they're my flesh and blood and I'm not heartsick over it like you. And what's with an old geezer like you asking about her; isn't that really a bit out of line?"
Wizard Jia had been despondent bordering on depression, and now the bottom had been pulled out from under him. His illusions laid bare, he had nothing to say in reply. He tried to rationalize it, dismissing Que as a troublesome relation of hers; he could only bear it in silence, prefering to avoid a clash. But in a few days he came back with some questions and Quezi said nothing, doing his best to show a complete lack of interest. Months later he was still unwilling to answer, and Jia Qingfeng didn't know what to think. When he ventured to speak, Zuo Que'r was silent for quite awhile and then turned away. Seeing his brother sitting silently there he could see just why that old woman might be totally without any maternal feelings in her belly. And on all the occasions he'd asked for private divinations on various things, Zuo Que'r had variously spoken, been silent, scolded Wizard Jia, spoken too fast or taken all day. So not surprisingly Jia was in turn happy, angry, hopeful, pensive, jealous and hateful! And a certain young troubador created this little verse on hearing the story, really fun to recite or even sing:
I gazed upon a tender face that filled me with surprise
Drive away the ghosts, oh, drive away the ghosts! I only peeped a second and I couldn't turn my eyes Love can kill a man, oh, love can kill a man! I'd do anything to please her, oh, do anything I can! |
The newest house is closed to mortal folks
Just those with special powers, oh, not ordinary folks! I feed the old man in there morn and night So put your mind at ease and stay, please do not move on! Just sit and wait til daybreak, oh, wait until the dawn! |
The lady recognized me as the brother of her dove
Add a bit of kinship, add a touch of love By nightfall we were ready to know each other's love She and I were up for it, we both felt just the same But then the iceman came, oh, but then the iceman came! |
Now Quer's gone off to supervise the work
The job is halfway done, oh, the job is halfway done! Now I've been blocked by madam's evil eye Nails from her eyes, oh, nails to crucify! Vows of chastity, oh, her vows of chastity! |
Dark green cloth and silken gown appear
But in word we are so insincere Cater to the tailor's every whim. Seduce your kinswoman Your prisoner of love Steal her for yourself, oh. steal her for yourself |
Rush upstairs and hug your darling tight
Value every minute, oh, value every minute Hurry and do it while it can be done Take a little break, until the setting sun Clutch her empty promises, Oh, clutch her empty word. |
The walls had ears and so the plan was wrecked
Forget about the bird, oh, forget about the bird Tomorrow she'll be going far way See her off again, mustn't show the pain Crying pearly tears for getting nothing, Oh, tears for having stolen not a thing! |
The smoke of incense often fills my private worship room
I pray for your return, oh, pray for your return Waiting for the day when our love again can burn Feel a bit of love, squeal a sound of love To the sky above, oh, to Heaven up above. |
Departing in the springtime, by autumn you'd return
You've failed to come on time, oh, failed to come on time I pray that you come back here as I watch the incense burn Tell me little sorceress, what's the reason I'm Without a single clue, oh, without a single clue? |
It's hard to tell another of this bitter private love
Just being sad alone, oh, just suffering alone If you broke off and scolded me you'd put my heart at ease I'd fall upon my knees, oh, in joy upon my knees! |
Guanwang doesn't care about the matters of my heart
Just going off to pray, oh, mumbling away From dawn to dusk I only fret the double role I play Unqualified to preach, oh, unqualified to pray Just listen to the spirits, oh, do what the spirits say. |
A Daoist priest is stricken by an illness of the mind
The strangest thing on earth, oh, strangest thing on earth In his wild delusions yet a wife he hopes to find Not a solid man, just a rotten heel He'll never pace the sky, oh, won't see Heaven high. |
Now, unrequited love falls for the most part into two classes. In the first category are the successful, talented boy and the well bred girl; one longs and the other loves. Throughout the ages there have been myriad stories written about this. No matter how hard people or circumstances try to keep them apart, it just makes them more attractive to each other and alone by moonlight they feel each other's soul; this love is mutual.
The other type of unrequited love is where a man chases a woman or vice versa and the one being chased feels nothing. A woman if sought after doesn't often take it to heart, and a man when chased frequently feels no longing inside of him. Love's onset drives away reason and brings on confusion, with its attendant sighs and gasps. The afflicted one is easily rebuffed, and from then on their feelings are known as an infatuation. Not knowing where Hu Mei's soul might be, Jia Qingfeng's eyes only searched compulsively for any sign of her return. And he made entirely too much of that onesided lovey-ducky promise of his that they would meet again, even indulging himself in fancies of a joyful sexual union with her. Now isn't that infatuation?
Since he'd lapsed into this illness of one-sided infatuation, Jia Qingfeng payed no mind to everyday matters. He sat as if about to nod off with drunken eyes, and neither read the sutras nor conducted sacrifices. And for months on end he failed to attend the worship services, with joss and candles, before the idol of Guandi that were regularly held on the first and fifteenth days. As for their food he was now dependent on Wizard Nie to go around and noisely beg provisions. Nie carried on as best he could in support of his master for a few days before slowly falling into rivalry with Zuo Que'r and the mad Wizard Jia was in no condition to handle the feud. After passage of a year like this he slowly began to show symptoms of a debilitating tubercular illness, with body aches, arthritis, muscular weakness and jaundice. There was no pain or itch from the onset but it still left him between life and death, for although it didn't kill him it made passing the days extremely miserable.
Now as we have learnt, there was that Fujiang Rapids Convent over at the ferry station on the River Fu, and Wizard Jia's old aunt was prioress there. Hearing that her nephew had taken ill she came over to the monastery especially to visit him, bringing an extremely ugly pagegirl as a servant. Nonetheless the flames of desire in Jia Qingfeng's lecherous heart were fanned to life and he once more put on his act of seduction, and in a few days he was upon her. Upon discovery of this the old nun was furious and gave the maid a tonguelashing. And as she was about to leave she swore that she would never again be back.
Well, enough of the mad Wizard and his affliction; let's focus our attention on Quezi. In the beginning Wizard Jia had granted his every desire for food and drink, and having had his full the boy gradually became lazy and unreliable. And when it happened that the Wizard became afflicted with consumption, Quezi was all of a sudden without a patron. On the few occasions that food or drink were to be had it was now all up to Wizard Nie to decide who could eat and when and how much they could have. And what he could get into his mouth, even including leftovers, was not really enough. All of a sudden there had been shortages of this and that and they had even made him pawn his clothes to buy rice. Realizing how bad things now were made Quezi suddenly remember his kinswomen.
"Oh, my ladies," he addressed them in his mind, "the three of us left home together but we took shelter here because with my bad leg I couldn't keep up. 'Stay safe in here and we'll send for you later' you said. But it's been a year and a half now...have you been swallowed up by a storm in your travels? How thirsty, hungry and lonely I am here...you must know what I mean! If I were a whole man I'd walk right out of here and become a wandering priest of the clouds, flying away from these petty squabbles. I feel as if I'm in limbo here, unable to advance or retreat. Gosh, it's really true, a thousand days of human happiness is as rare as a hundred days' red blossom! And the priests are so mean and nasty compared to when we first met, why, I'll hate them until my dying day!"
But no more talk of Quezi's resentment. Let's get get back to Yang Xing, ordered to be on his way as a courier. Off on his mission at dawn he arrived at Swordgate Mountain in less than a day and took the path leading up to Guanwang Monastery. Overwhelmed with thirst, he asked on arrival in the compound for some soup. Wizard Nie took him at once for an official messenger, not to be mistreated. As Wizard Jia was down with his illness, Nie took it upon himself to ladel out an overflowing bowl of gruel and had little Lali, the temple waif, carry it out. He then summoned Quezi to attend to the visitor. Now, nobody in the world was easier to spot than Zuo Que, and Yang Xing was delighted to recognize him at once!
Quezi bowed deeply. "Where is your excellency from," he asked in greeting.
"I've been sent from Huazhou."
"I've never had a taste of Mt Hua's tea" answered Quezi as he carefully presented the bowl of gruel.
"That'll sure quench the thirst" replied Yang, satisfied, as little Lali took the bowl away. Yang Xing then stood up and went out of the gate with Quezi.
"Is your surname Zuo?" asked Yang.
"Why, yes, it is!"
"Let's go away where we can talk." And the two men walked off about a hundred paces from the main gate.
"I've been sent here by my lord, the Deputy Magistrate Yang Chun of Huayin County, Huazhou. Sorry it's got to be trash like me. I've got official orders here in the form of a letter from Holy Auntie, commanding your reverence to accompany me back at once, no delay!"
When Quezi opened the letter he found a poem of four lines:
I'm living on the Yangs' estate in Huayin's County seat
One wise and good as Master Yang is truly hard to meet. |
He wants to share your journey up on cinnabar's high track
Comply at once with this demand and don't you dare look back! |
Now, Quezi recognized his old mother's handwriting and looked off happily into the distance, then turned to go back and gather up his bundle.
"Not necessary!" replied Yang Xing. "I'm at your service. Anything you need, just ask and it's yours. It'll be a bit rough on the road but as soon as you get home you'll have everything you want!"
"Huazhou is so far and I've only got one good leg..."
"We'll press on down Swordgate Mountain on foot, I'll help of course, and then hire a horse for you to ride on for the rest of the journey. No need for you to walk."
Now Quezi suddenly thought of that frightening Wizard Nie and the seriously ill Jia Qingfeng over in the temple; he didn't really have any tender feelings toward them to speak of. If he brought this up they would only start talking about the days when they all first met and the kindness they'd once shown a mother and her two children; what could he then say? He had only a sheet of paper from her, not even a gift in appreciation. It would be best not to tell them. And there were his remaining clothes, winter and summer garb; he need only run over and pick out the best from the closet... Quezi held back. "This fellow standing here may have called himself 'trash'," he thought, "but he's the trusted courier of a high official, ordered to bring his man right back... the clothes might hold him up." So, sighing, he acquiesced.
"Mother said to be back with the speed of lightning, so what can we do? Let's go! I'm afraid if I dilly-dally around here your master might misunderstand and blame you."
Thereupon Yang Xing took hold of Quezi and, in three-legged fashion, they fled Swordgate mountain. For the remainder of the journey they hired a saddle horse for Quezi to ride, with Yang Xing walking apace, leading and lagging, alternatively coaxing and reigning the beast. And off they went down the road to Huayin County.
Now let's branch off for awhile and get back to Wizard Nie. He felt strange when Quezi didn't return for supper. When he was still not back much later in the evening it was time to inform Wizard Jia.
"When did he leave?" asked Jia.
"Earlier today a private courier stopped by on foot to ask for some soup. Quezi went out the gate with him and never returned."
"And where was that runner from?"
Little Lali now spoke up. "I went out to give him the bowl of gruel and I heard a line or two...seems as though he was from Huazhou."
Now, when Wizard Jia heard the name "Huazhou" his heartbeat quickened. "Why, that's where Mt Hua is at. But if Mother and Sis are there, why in the world wasn't there a message for me?"
"Huazhou's a huge district with big counties," said Nie, "not your little family village or squire's borough. The two women are probably praying on the mountain and they sent the messenger to bring Quezi."
Wizard Jia was cranky in his illness. "You rotten son of a bitch excuse for a priest!" he scolded. "You're so damn clever it amazes me. Folks have long said that 'as fallen leaves float back to sea, so will friends some day reunited be.' His mom and sister had sent that messenger from Huazhou and then you went and decided he couldn't see me, and you sent out Quezi instead! If he went off like that there must have been a letter from Mother and Sis or they even came themselves for him, or perhaps he was even abducted. You didn't ask enough questions! And now you've got nothing but a bunch of crap excuses for me!"
Little Lali ran from the room in fear. And Wizard Nie, seeing his master so angry, tried to mollify him. "You're right, sir; tomorrow morning I'll go find that messenger and we'll know everything."
"That's just closing the barn door after the horse has run away! Where do you expect to find him?"
"Didn't you say, sir, that friends would all some day be reunited?"
Hearing this reply Wizard Jia's face went purple with rage and he suddenly sat up in bed, reaching out to strike Nie. And then he fainted back onto the pillow, exhausted as before. Wizard Nie left the room mumbling under his breath, and finding Lali in the hall beat him with several cruel blows of his fists. The little waif just cried and cried, and Wizard Jia was even more disturbed to hear this. But with his mind unclear and body weakened there was nothing he could do.
Come evening the lamps were still unlit. Now, it was the eighteenth night of the ninth lunar month and the moon had risen early. Calling up his remaining energy he managed to sit up in bed and gaze at the moon in the window above him; countless feelings and thoughts rushed through his heart and mind. He wondered where his stepmother and sister were at the moment, and seeing that big round face in the night sky he wondered if the Lady of the Moon might have a letter of theirs for him. And just as he started longing wildly for Mei'r, in ran little Lali.
"Teacher Que has returned," he announced, "and he's with his mother and sister outside the gate."
Hearing this, Wizard Jia felt encouragement coursing through his veins and was filled with boundless joy. He hurriedly called out for them to enter, and tried to get out of bed but his limbs wouldn't obey and he drifted back to sleep. He then heard the sound of his folks talking and sensed the three of them entering his room, his mother asking about the cause of his illness and comforting him with tender words. "We'll have a talk," she said, "as soon as I get the bags all squared away."
Quezi ran off, leaving only Mei'r, giggling as she climbed onto the edge of his bed. "Big brother, I've been away for so long, only to find you ill like this!"
Wizard Jia spoke weakly while kneeling on the bed. "This illness came because of you, dear sister, but because I've seen you today I can die without regret!" And he raised his hands, gently placing them on her neck, while Hu Mei'r lowered her head and made ready to kiss him. Wizard Jia then suddenly awoke. It had all been a dream. Opening his eyes he saw only the quiet room with half of that full moon framed in the window, and a cool breeze was blowing in on his body.
The same old moon as always wanes outside his windowsill
Shining down on one so sad, becoming sadder still. |
If what becomes of Wizard Jia should interest you at all
You'll hear in later chapters of what next events befall. |